The Day After
I always come to.
And that girl,
I don't know who she is
hijacks my mind
She isn't me. She can't be me. But if she is, keep me at bay. I'll
bring harm to your life and harm to mine. Menacing, laughing
all the way. She told me today when she feels alive, there's a
steeper tilt in the axis, where God and humanity play
I want to run away
Eject
Waves of regret wash over me and soak me clean. I question
myself, was it real or a dream? I didn't do anything
It had to be a dream
She lives in my dreams.
Unchained
I let her run free
She's writing the things my unconscious brings,
no Master, she sings!
on this pale blue dot
where Moses forgot
we're puppets on strings
The Eros stings
And Logos our God
who made the rules
we teach in schools
was it He who said,
don't do this and
don't do that
you're a psychopath
a sociopath,
innocence,
drowned in a bath
and now you're dangerous,
lawless,
a rapist,
swimming in violence and charged with wrath
drowning your lovers
in the aftermath
a prisoner in chains,
sad but unseen
and now you're bad
a prisoner who's mad
and no one's free
It's not like that
I stand at the edge
behind the line
a line in the sand on a pale blue dot
Isn't that the case more often than not?
What have I done if I haven't done,
When I'm done with the lies and the truth is here and there's
no disguise?
I'm standing right here
It's just how I feel and all of me
exposed to the world;
the light of the sun
shining on me
can't you see,
hi
it's me,
suspended in a beam
I say it out loud and my ancestors sing 'cause they're finally free
from the chains they've kept
around their necks
rotting
in dreams
they've wept
screaming for me,
to change it all
'cause I am them and they are me
it's upside down, what they ask of me
how can I marry control and rage and desires I crave
on this stage in a cage
it's all an illusion
a grand delusion
of death and birth, just turn the page!
turn the page?
holy nirvana
we're trapped in a beam
on a dot
on a dot
on a mote of dust in a beam, it's a dot
it's a dot!
we're trapped in a cage where dreams are chained to the
darkness of a world inside the dot
there's nothing
just longing
and I'm swallowed whole;
a sinking hole,
prey for the rapist
a hollowness in the depths of my soul
it's dark
it's quiet
you're not really there
I'll meet you in prison
I've done it before
but the prison's in me
and you've opened the door
I plead. I yearn. I've longed to be heard. Just listen to me and
don't look back
take my hand, get off the track, jump
now?
Now.
Past the line and over the edge, deep below, to the edge of the earth
fall with me now
'cause I need to know, what lies below this pale blue dot
Just don't take advantage of me!
'cause don't you know
I'was once a teen
who longed to be seen
'til someone took advantage of me!
now he's locked in a cage and so are you until the day you die
when you fall off the earth
anyway
I'm walking away
I'm falling alone
it matters not
outside
this dot
I know from my dreams
and all His commandments,
they ripped at the seams, it seems
I don't know what is real
but I'm starting to love what the darkness means
I'm writing my wrongs
and singing along
for dust thou art and unto dust thou return
on this pale blue dot where I lie and I yearn
with you I belong,
'cause my shadow runs deeper
and the tilt is steeper,
and my arms are out and I'm looking down
I just have to make it past Saint Peter
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I jump
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